was talking to a friend of mine when he commented something like “am more cool” these days. He was saying that I used to be very reserved and reply in one word whenever he wanted to speak to me. He had thought that I was being shy(LOL).
And then, I said that it was never the case and I just take my own sweet time to get comfortable with people.. Usually, people would have to beg asking me to speak.. And once am comfortable and start speaking, they would beg asking me to stop speaking 😉
Anyways, as am writing this now, I think that its not always the case. I feel easily comfortable with girls/guys of my age and with younger ones. But when it comes to older ones, I tend to study a lot.. I think that when one is not used to a different kind of crowd, it takes a little longer to settle in. This reminds me of an incident too.
And So, we lived in a Quarters during our child hood and the entire neighbourhood was filled with children. In our apartment, we had two major gangs. The royal 4 and the little 5. Well, little 5 is somewhat odd because it included me too. I was in my 4th grade then and the rest included Amudha in her IInd grade, Shiny and Eddy in I std and aishwarya in LKG. Royal 4 included my elder brother who was then in his 7th, latha and ramesh in their 8th and Raji in her 5th standard.
I always tried to upgrade to the Royal 4 but was often refused saying that I was still a baby. But then, whenever I got a chance to be just in their company, I would try to behave as though am a grown up. And this brought me great respect in my little 5 gang. I would tell them .. admiring stories about the Royal 4 and what they do daily and how they beat the bad boys (supposedly from the apartment next to us).
And once, I got an opportunity to get included with Royal 5. Well, I didn’t know that I was being made a scape goat. They were playing a card game (Ass or A-spade) and wanted one more hand. I offered to help in but said that somebody should teach me the game. Ramesh anna offered to help in but I refused and went and sat near my brother. At the end of few more rounds, my brother and his set of friends fooled me and I ended up getting all the 4 A’s and 4 Kings. There was no way I could win. Seeing that I was cheated.. I started crying. Ramesh anna again offered to console and this time, I had no other go. I thought of giving him a chance and see whether my fate changes… It did.. In one round, he helped me get rid of all the A’s and came out as a clear winner..
And from then on, he was my role model for sometime.. And I made sure that I never played with my brother’s friends again. My obsession ended that day.
(P.S: Now, this equation is not true any more.. all are professionals (one CA, two Masters in Engineering and one MBA) and working in mnc’s and are such a sweet hearts to move with).